tower of papers

no words

I have no words

no words that can heal

all that is broken

or for what they feel

no, I have nothing

for this sort of pain

but we can keep loving

We will love in their name

And though some are broken

We will not be scared

You can't take away kindness

You can't take away care

But I have no words

that can help with the pain

My heart’s with the grieving

because what could I say.

—dodie clark

...

It took so much time, finally, success and escape from september. It has been raining heavily most of the days, and so do my heart, it kept raining heavily too. And for now, the last day of october, nothing much have change, patiently waiting for november to appear, in hope that better things are coming.



"please don't cry"
"please,"


dear, perhaps you can change it to


"you can do it, hwaiting"
—or
"you are doing great until now, keep moving forward with better!"


it is okay to feel sad sometimes, but you have to keep looking forward and slowly gather all of your strength to walk in the future. Even in your small steps, your effort will make it bigger.

that would sound much better 😊

" you build me up. "

I should write more I guess, it's a way to solve and also can be the book for myself to read over and over again without feeling bored. I am not too great with words, but sometimes, my own words can makes me feel so alive, in my own world, cheering my own self.

"—and it took most of heart to follow the flow, my heart in raining heavily too."

_____

Allah knows when you do something for someone and they don't thank you.

He knows when you get up to pray in the early hours of the morning 

while the rest of the world is asleep.

He knows when you hold your tongue instead of being rude or disrespectful.

He knows when you don't argue with your parents even though you know you're right.

He knows when you do the right thing when no one is watching.

He knows when you make du'a for your enemies instead of hurting them with bad words.

He knows when you do the smallest of good deeds, so small even you forget about it.

Allah knows.

_____

"It is a journey, make it great to be the experience that you have been through successfully."

_____

Hug them.

If you can't hug them, hold them.

If you can't hold them, don't say a word, just look at them.

If you can't look at them, try to make them acknowledge at your existence.

Tell them you're sorry-even you're the one at fault.

Tell them you're there for them.

Tell them they're worth more than they think they do.

If they're being sulky, it's okay,

they too deserve to feel a little love.

Tell them they deserve all the time and space in the world to be sad, angry and grieve.

Give your attention, make them feel wanted.

I don't know about you, but that's a great way in cheering someone up.

_____

"You're feeling burn out and discouraged, but you've made it this far and that's really brave—"

I love to write a lot, even at the smallest things—when I bought new cactus, how lai guan lin from wanna one makes me want to fangirling again (trust me I have tried to not being obsessed with k-pop), and when mum surprise me with my favorite vanilla caramel along with red velvet cake from one of my favourite cafe ( 😱😍 ) and I cry for that because she never did that before, got excited when sister text me says, "open this website, pick something that you want," 💕 oh-my-sister-so-great-and-thoughtful-sometimes. —and there's a lot more, if I continue, it would be my entire life story. would you believe me?



I am so grateful

and

I am so happy


with writing, it can make someone feel so great.