Thursday, January 24, 2019

you can do it

note of the day by @zulianaeusoff

So I stay awake
If leaving is a big mistake?

I tried to make you look for me
To be your everything
Oh what else should I do
To make it through to you?
You are unthinkable
Almost impossible
Oh there's nothing left in me
So I let my eyes speak

Here's to the ones who are underappreciated by their partners, who need to realize and who needs a slap on their faces—that they should just chow. Tak ada manusia yang benar sanggup berubah 100% untuk kau hanya sebab kau sayang dia dan kau dah curahkan segala isi hati jiwa raga kau kat dia. Know your worth.

Jangan putus berdoa dekat Allah. He's the Almighty, He hears, He listens and He knows everything you mumble and feel in that heart of yours.

Somehow it just makes me feel better. It is part of Allah's perfect plan for each of us. Every single thing that happens, there must be a reason behind it. Go through it with your braveness and I know you can 😉

Tuesday, January 22, 2019

sad love #1

The chances that I have are limited, short and it is...sad. The last one before you're gone—for good. Fresh moment that I remember, the video call—I am smiling widely like nothing happens. Just to make sure that you are in great condition as you're so ready and determined to face the future that you've choose to go through. "To a better future," you said. Time flies too fast, we look at each other like we're not going to meet anymore, it is...sad. The atmosphere—calm, mostly it feels like the weather is comforting me. I smile again.

But, deep inside, I am weak. The future might be beautiful but to go through, it might be scary.

"Don't leave me..."

"I'm sorry, love..."

Ah, I hate hearing that. The fact that he is apologizing for the past few days. It is scaring me.

The messages...I am speechless. I couldn't reply to it.

"I need you to support me, my love. I am deeply sorry. For leaving you alone and for asking you to wait. I know it is going to be hard. But I also know this great woman would be strong enough to go through all of this. You might cry, you might scream out loud, looking at our pictures and the memories that we've created...I know you, but you can. My love can do this, right?"

All the clouds in me are raining 🌧
More messages—reminders from him; simple and lovely.

"I will be back, that's my promise. So I need you to wait for me."
"It is time for me to go..."

There's no more way to stop him.
He's leaving.
He left.

and here, I'll be waiting for you.

"One piece of film, I will remember you as warm spring."