sad love #1

The chances that I have are limited, short and it is...sad. The last one before you're gone—for good. Fresh moment that I remember, the video call—I am smiling widely like nothing happens. Just to make sure that you are in great condition as you're so ready and determined to face the future that you've choose to go through. "To a better future," you said. Time flies too fast, we look at each other like we're not going to meet anymore, it is...sad. The atmosphere—calm, mostly it feels like the weather is comforting me. I smile again.

But, deep inside, I am weak. The future might be beautiful but to go through, it might be scary.

"Don't leave me..."

"I'm sorry, love..."

Ah, I hate hearing that. The fact that he is apologizing for the past few days. It is scaring me.

The messages...I am speechless. I couldn't reply to it.

"I need you to support me, my love. I am deeply sorry. For leaving you alone and for asking you to wait. I know it is going to be hard. But I also know this great woman would be strong enough to go through all of this. You might cry, you might scream out loud, looking at our pictures and the memories that we've created...I know you, but you can. My love can do this, right?"

All the clouds in me are raining 🌧
More messages—reminders from him; simple and lovely.

"I will be back, that's my promise. So I need you to wait for me."
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"It is time for me to go..."

There's no more way to stop him.
He's leaving.
He left.



and here, I'll be waiting for you.

🍁

"One piece of film, I will remember you as warm spring."

Life Lessons Advice from an 80-year-old-man

the life lessons advice that I found on tumblr and it is pretty cute advice, I mean there's meaning in it that we should follow, so it would be great to share with you guys, have fun while reading it ✨

+ have a firm handshake

+ look people in the eye

+ keep secrets

+ never give up on anybody, miracles happen everyday 

+ be brave.

   even if you're not, pretend to be

+ choose your life's mate carefully.

   from this one decision will come 90% of all your happiness or misery

+ make it a habit to do nice things for people who will never find out

+ lend only those books you never care to see again

+ never deprive someone of hope; it might be all that they have

+ when playing games with children, let them win

+ give people a second chance, but not third

+ be romantic

+ be a good loser

+ think twice before burdening a friend with a secret

+ when someone hugs you, let them be the first to let go

+ be modest, a lot was accomplished before you were born

+ keep it simple

+ beware of the person who has nothing to lose
+ life your life so that your epitaph could read, no regrets

+ be bold and courageous.

   when you look back on life, you'll the things you didn't do more than the ones you did

+ never waste an opportunity to tell someone you love them

+ remember no one makes it alone.

   have a grateful heart and be quick to acknowledge those who helped you

+ take charge of your attitude, don't let someone else choose it for you

+ begin each day with some of your favourite music

+ once in a while, take the scenic route

no one can be perfect at every single of things, trying is the best way 💗

with love, jijaahmad 💖

aku ada.

selalunya aku hanya minta untuk sentiasa ada,

khusus untuk orang-orang yang perlu aku.

tapi

aku mahu lenyap
buat seketika.

yang sentiasanya aku minta
biar ada aku saat mereka perlunya aku,
khusus.

kerna kosong itu juga sakit,
jadi aku mahu ada,
saat namaku dipanggil,
dan dinyatanya perlu.

katanya yang sentiasa,
— pinjam bahumu
buat buang setiap pekung di dada,

jadi tak mengapa sayang,

aku ada.

walau payah aku dengan rasa sendiri,

aku sedia menepis sedaya aku,

kerna aku mahu ada.

tapi

aku mahu lenyap

untuk seketika.

andai diri ini punya kuasa.

apa saja mahuku?

inginku agar dapat melihat seharian mereka,

yang sentiasa mahu aku ada saat jatuh

tapi tiada jejak saat aku perlu.

tanda tanya

adakah ketiadaan sementara aku itu terkesan pada jiwa?

atau bakal sedar bahwa aku juga yang sejujurnya,.....juga memerlukan.

ahh jiwa,

mari berjuang!

the special talent of mine

the conversation that still hanging around my mind-

"hi"

"hi"

"so..........."

"how far is it?"

"I don't wanna hurt you... 😔"

"is it too far?"

"all that I can ask is that I need your help"

"what kind of help?"

"can you please,...wait for me?"

"and I think that is one of my special talent, right?"

[ credit to owner ]

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if the parting is amicable,
it will be a good memory for us.

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my little note ;
Everyone can wait for each other,
but what kind of thing that makes the journey of waiting is beautiful?
The EFFORT. from both side. 
On how they manage and make it worth to wait for, it is gonna be so beautiful 🌻