I don't know my name

I don't know my name
I don't play by the rules of the game
So you said I'm just trying
Just trying

So I heard you are my sisters friend
You get along quite nicely
You ask me why I cut my hair
And change myself completely

I went from bland and popular
To joining the marching band
I made the closest friends
I'll ever have in my life time

I am lost
Trying to get found
In an ocean of people
Please don't ask me any questions
There won't be a valid answer
I'll just say...

I don't know my name
I don't play by the rules of game
So you say I'm just trying
Just trying

I now know my name
I don't play by the rules of the game
So you say, I'm not trying
But I'm trying
To find my way

—Grace VanderWaal

for myself

here I am,

at the balcony,

with a cup of coffee in my hand,

wearing this favourite shirt of mine,

with calm and the beautiful appearance

of light by the moon,

here I am,

making time for myself.

a sip of coffee,

this feels better,

in this night,

everything is just perfect.

please,

in needed of this calmness,

please,

to stay longer,

tonight, stay still.

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Wish list

A guy who looks great in jeans
A guy who likes my favourite dishes
A guy who laughs even when my stories are boring
I like that kind of guy
We don't have to talk too long to know this

A guy who has a sexy brain

A guy who hides me in his bosom

When he sees me flossing

A guy who makes a great cream pasta

A guy with beautiful eyes when he smiles

I like that kind of guy

Even when I am broke
He is a guy who wants to see me
Even when I am rude
He is a guy who still responds with a smile
I like that kind of guy

arrange by Solar MAMAMOO
; Eric Nam Solar [We Got Married Ep. 12]

tanda tanya

Aneh aku pada yang mulanya hanya percakapan biasa-biasa, tibanya bertukar menjadi serius lalu beralih menjadi sebuah pertelingkahan.

Bukan itu yang dimahu.

Aneh aku pada mereka yang beriak biasa. Tiada dipedulinya apa mahunya juga, seperti tidak pentingnya mereka padahal bila jauh dari mata, tidak sudah kelihatan, baru menyesal jatuh bertahun lama.

Apa mahu mereka?

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Aneh aku pada mereka yang membawa tebal kisah palsu. Kehulur, kehilir. Dibiarkan tersebar serata biar ditarik segala perhatian yang ada.

Apa mereka dapat?

Aneh aku pada mereka yang sering berkata-kata tinggi pada belakang, sekali ke hadapan mulut juga tidak mengeluar suara. Tidak bergerak mulutnya bak si bisu.

Diam, rapat.

Aneh aku pada mereka yang gah mengusung berjebah cerita, dijaja tanpa dipikir apa mungkin pada mereka yang lain. Bagai sentiasa pada yang lain tidak kena, hanya diri yang sempurna.

Menggeleng aku.

Biar.

Alah, siapa jua yang sempurna, bukan?

Ikhlas di sini bukan untuk sesiapa, tapi jika ada tulisan yang terkena pada jiwa, maaf.

Buat diri sendiri yang kadang terpesong,
masing-masing,
tolong ingatkan ya.

Em,
kebaikan kalau diajaknya seramai yang lain, lebih baik bukan?
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