tatap dan nanti.

hari ini

aku punya tatapan penuh

pada kamu

sehari ini

ke arah mana pun melihat

mata aku segera mencari kamu

bagai tercapai capai ingin

bagai ternanti nanti kasih

bagai jauh tak mampu ditatap lagi

bagaimana ya nanti?

tatkala lirik mata melekat pada dirimu

tak dapat kau menyambut dengan segera

tiada kata buat penguat jiwa

yang disini aku,

leka

setia

dan menunggu hingga kamu hadir tiba

bagaimana ya nanti?

aku meneruskan

aku tatap

dan aku nanti

peluang besar bagi aku berbicara

buat masa yang masih ada

disampaikan melalui mata

lalu menyimpan kemas dalam jiwa

aku cuba yang semampu diri

mencari solusi hanya sendiri

agar mampu lalui penantian ini

jadi,

aku masih disini

leka, 

setia, 

menatap dan menanti.

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on off on this blog.

trying my best untuk perah segala kerajinan dan idea untuk dimuntahkan segalanya disini,

muntah pelangi AHAHAHA

see you very soon, oke?

take care.

Y o u

 

🌻

You made flowers grow inside of me

in places I didn't know we're still alive.

You made me smile a bit more

and laugh a lot louder.

My little kryptonite.

I called you names

I never told a single soul.

I never knew

I would find love so kind and patient.

You were both and even more.

You kept me grounded

in my worst days

and gave me hope for a better beginning.

My dearest sunshine,

I shall love you eternally and agelessly

until all the air in my lungs deflates.

So,

do not give up just yet; we're in.

credit; tumblr.

 

little note;

Hi, hallooo again!

It's been sooooooo long, I know.

Always missing this comfort space of mine, but nothing's workin, so I needed a break (long one). Tons of unfinished words, sentences and moreeee! Trying my best to clear my 'draft' section and pour it all here, oke? hihi. Starting a not-so-comeback with cute words I discover, stay tuned for more and for #wordsbyJA (pleaseeee be excited 😂)

🌻

30 Days Blog Challenge in 1 Day ( I )

Few weeks ago, I past across Sarah's entry that was published in December and it looks fun.

So I decided to join to do this too.

1. Your favorite song

current fav (since it will always change);

—Four Seasons by Taeyeon

—Heather by Conan Gray

—Semalam by Aina Abdul

2. Your favorite movie

there's a lot, but will list some out here;

—Kim Ji Young, Born 1982

—Nanti Kita Cerita Tentang Hari Ini

—Filosofi Kopi

—Crazy Rich Asian

3. Your idea of the perfect first date

Calm, easy-going, tolerate and can build a lot of conversation. Would love to be in a café with good foods or even at a park sitting on a bench with ice blended drink—watching others playing around while chatting. Mostly I prefer for just a very calm situation on the first ever date, not doing much just sharing each other's life, it would be perfect for me.

Nawh, I miss food hunting. I miss my OOZE café. brb crying

4. Your favorite photograph of your best friend

best friends (with the 's') and there's too many of my favs, will sure to include them later at another entry 💖

5. What makes you different from everyone else

This one would be the most exciting part because I took my time asking others on how do they think about me, most of it melts my heart like awhhhhhhh~💗

here we gooooo

😂

this is actually from my bestfriend and she always say that I really look alike Princess Meenie or Yasmin Redzuan (you can google her—even though I didn't know what are the similarities of me and her) 😆 She even call me princess, pretty much comfortable with that 💛

saving the best for the last,

deep meaning.

I am so extra 😎😂

6. A song to match your mood

River Flows in You by Yiruma

7. A photo of an animal you'd love to keep as a pet

these 3, can?

8. Your dream wedding

Garden theme wedding 🌼

we can dream, right?

9. A photo of the item you last purchased

I just went a little bit crazy over shampoo(s), glad that I didn't buy 3 of them.

Two shampoos and one conditioner.

I bought that white grapefruit & mosa mint shampoo because it smells amazing (believe me).

Guardian have sales going on. One for RM13+ from the actual price; RM27+

10. A photo of your favorite place to eat

The Kafeina Depot — @thekafeinadepot

good foods, good space — definitely one of my fav

11. A picture of your favorite memory

ayah.

12. Your current relationship, if single discuss how single life is

Not available.

13. A picture of your favorite band or artist

Taeyeon.

14. A TV show you're currently addicted to

My Girl

15. Something you don't leave the house without

—phone, purse, spec, lipbalm/lipstick, mask (due to the pandemic)

💛

that's it as for today.

but there will be 15 more questions that I will answer

so stay tuned for PART II in February.

promiseeeeee 🙆

________________________

I am planning entries for;

— poems (for sure)

— January's purchases 😍

— add special tag for cafes that I've been to (I have tons to share actually)

— work space/study table tour

should I?

A beautiful recover

I am surprised,

knowing that I know something would happen.

I figure out that it will be at the nearest end, so close.

unbelievable.

and how things were really happened.

amazing.

so, here;

What do you think — having a deep wound, not fully recover but can handle the pain, and still, you, letting the same wound take more bigger part of your body, so much pain, it is burning, it is risking, yet you, still handle with care, put a lot of strength to survive, so much patience, abundance of hopes hoping that it will recover, soon.

You believe it will. You smile brightly, like there's no pain that you are handling. You're good at doing that. "I'm okay" always at your mouth. Well, takpa, Allah kan ada (ease some sort of me when I said this).

I found something beautiful and really helpful to recover when I'm down, sad or uneasy feelings
I discovered this particular ayat in al-Quran always comforts me, anytime, anywhere when I recite it.

Al-Baqarah, 2:286.

Allah tidak memberati seseorang melainkan apa yang terdaya olehnya. Ia mendapat pahala kebaikan yang diusahakannya, dan ia juga menanggung dosa kejahatan yang diusahakannya. (Mereka berdoa dengan berkata): "Wahai Tuhan kami! Janganlah Engkau mengirakan kami salah jika kami lupa atau kami tersalah. Wahai Tuhan kami! Janganlah Engkau bebankan kepada kami bebanan yang berat sebagaimana yang telah Engkau bebankan kepada orang-orang yang terdahulu daripada kami. Wahai Tuhan kami! Janganlah Engkau pikulkan kepada kami apa yang kami tidak terdaya memikulnya. Dan maafkanlah kesalahan kami, serta ampunkanlah dosa kami, dan berilah rahmat kepada kami. Engkaulah Penolong kami; oleh itu, tolonglah kami untuk mencapai kemenangan terhadap kaum-kaum yang kafir".

It might look simple, it might doesn't really give impact to someone, but I believe there will be someone, out there—like me that go through a hard life, nearly giving up, and so on. Look up for this particular verse and understand the meaning of it. I cried even after recite it over and over again, maybe because I am too soft, and it touched my heart, so calm. Tearing up so much but somehow it help me gain strength like "I am strong, I know I can go through all of this because of that I am still here."  I ain't gonna lie, I am not really someone that is good, I do have my bad too as what we know that nobody is perfect.

As much as this ayat help me so much with my life, so I am more than happy to share with others too. And in hope that we can get over or recover from our sadness with a great way.

take care of yourself my dear sunflowers 🌻