Tuesday, December 20, 2016

lovely things


someone who can't contain their smile when they see you
seeing the colours blend together smoothly while doing art
putting on your favourite perfume
laughing so much you can't breathe
walking into familiar bookshop
day when you let nothing get to you
taking photographs and capturing moments in journal
wearing your favourite coat
seeing a message notification from someone who means a lot to you
picking strawberries at a local farm
glitter in the sand and in the sea water
little ephemeral moments when you're happy to be alive.


source; flowerais

Friday, December 09, 2016

365 days Daily Planner Giveaway by Luqman Zakaria

hello!
,


it has been a long time since I join any giveaway. I found this giveaway which is a favourite item the most of all for planner addict! And I am one of it who really want this 365 days Daily Planner ✨

Time flies too fast, and it is already December, which means-- few days more for 2016.
"Wake me up when december end,"
2017 would be so good if I prepare journal/planner to document every chapter and new things in my life, great! So, this is the opportunity for me, hehe.

Goodluck.

Thursday, November 24, 2016

my obsession and more of [ Lang Leav ]

her artwork (books);











































News;

"The Poetry of Lang Leav 2017 Wall Calendar" is available now! It is features with thirteen of her poems that have been selected from her best-selling books. 

There also will be a special edition of  [ The Universe of Us ] and it is includes the poem 'Stars in Love' written for Maine Mendoza and Alden Richards. Also, the book includes a special handwritten note by Lang Leav!

to check out more of Lang Leav's news, here; Lang Leav's website

---

So, here the good news that I found at Lang Leav's twitter,
Lang Leav will come to Malaysia (weee)!

This is the Lang Leav's schedule at Malaysia, soon!

Unfortunately,
I couldn't go, since family had discuss and plan to go to KL in middle of december as holiday,
so of course they wouldn't let me go,
sobsob 😭

---
here, more of her beautiful artwork:

"


     K E Y S


But hearts don't have locks, she said.
Some do, he replied. 
There are people who give away the key to theirs for safekeeping. 
Others are mistrustful and give out several keys just in case. 
Then there are those who have misplaced them but never cared to look.
What about your heart, she asked.
He smiled.
Your words are the key to mine, he replied.
Never forget your words.


     R E M O R S E


You loved her and now you know what you've lost. Now your hands feel emptier than before you met heryour heart feels heavier. But you were young and you were careless. How were you to know the value of what you were given?

Yet you did know. At least a part of you did. In some strange, mysterious way, you knew there was something special about that girl. In her eyes, you caught a glimpse of your own destiny. You knew it was meant to travel with hers.

If only you could go back to that day; to the one where she stood before you, gentle and hopefulwaiting for you to make up your mind. When you thought to yourself that nothing had ever looked more beautiful.

That was the moment you should have told her what your heart was telling you. If you had allowed it, she could have been your whole world. All you had to do was open the door. All you had to say was, come in.


     C L O C K S


Here in time
            you are mine,
            I could not be
            more prouder.

I do not know
            why I love you so,
            the clock knows not
            its hour.

Yet it is clear
            to all that's here,
            that time told 
            by seeing.

Even though
            clocks do not know
            it is the reason
            for their being.


     W I S H F U L   T H I N K I N G


You say that you are over me,
            my heart,
            it skips,
            it sinks.

I see you now with someone new,
            I stare,
            I stare,
            I blink.

Someday I'll be over you,
            I know,
            I know

I think.


     W I S H I N G   S T A R S


I still search
            for you in crowds,
            in empty fields
            and soaring clouds.

In city lights
            and passing cars,
            on winding roads
            and wishing stars.

I wonder where
            you could be now,
            for years I've not said
            your name out loud.

And longer since
            I called you mine
            time has passed
            for you and I.

But I have learnt
            to live without,
            I do not mind
            I still love you anyhow.


     W A L L F L O W E R


Shrinking in a corner,
            pressed into the wall;
            do they know I'm present,
            am I here at all?

Is there a written rule book,
            that tells you how to be
            all the right things to talk about
            that everyone has but me?

Slowly I am withering
            a flower deprived of sun;
            longing to belong to,
            somewhere or someone.
"

Saturday, November 19, 2016

[ Lang Leav ]

question: One poet that inspire you the most?

as a lovers of poems, Lang Leav is one of my favourite poet!
So, I would like to include some of her beautiful artwork;


"



     H e r   W o r d s


Love a girl who writes
            and live her many lives;
            you have yet to find her,
            beneath her words of guise.

Kiss her blue-inked fingers,
            forgive the pens they marked.
            The stain of your lips upon her
            the one she can't discard.

Forget her tattered memories,
            or the pages others took;
            you are her ever after
            the hero of her book.


    
    A   P O S T C A R D


To the man I love, to my future.

The first time I felt your presence,I began joining the dots in the sky,
wondering when our stars would align.

I often think of where you are and if you're happy. Are you in love? I hope she is gentle. I know you and I are the same in that way—we bruise a little more easily the most. You see our souls were made in the same breath.

I know I'm running late—I'm sorry. Things haven't worked out the way I planned. But believe me when I tell you I am on my way. 

Until then, think of me, dream of me and I will do the same. One day I will learn your name, and I will write it somewhere in this page. And we will realise that we have known each other all along. 



     P R O C E S S I O N


He used to ask me all the time if I was okay. As though he never knew for sure. He would ask me when he was tired of frustrated or when he felt helpless. He would ask me when he was afraid. 

He asked me the same question, long after we stopped being lovers—when we became something less yet somehow more.  Are you okay? He would whisper on the phone late at night, when she was asleep or had gone to her mother's for the weekend.  Are you okay?

He hasn't asked me in years, but I know he still thinks it. I know the question still reverberates in his mind like a broken record and he will keep looking for answers long after there is nothing left to appease him. 

It was always the same question, over and over again. Like the start of a procession. And it took me years to recognise the unsaid words that marched silently behind.

Are you okay; because I love you.
Are you okay; because I need you.
Are you okay; because I don't know how to live without you.



     T H E   G I R L   S H E   W A S


She doesn't feel like herself. Not anymore. She was different once.

Now she is like watered down version, pale and thin. She slips through the cracks, unnoticed. She fades into the background, afraid of saying wrong thing. She grows sharp edges and won't let anyone get close to her.

She doesn't know how she came to be like this, how she ended up here. She only remembers the way she used to bewild and reckless. Bold and unapologetic.



"

some, just some of it

Thursday, October 27, 2016

the main beautiful

She was beautiful,
but not like those girls in the magazines.
She was beautiful,
for the way she thought.
She was beautiful,
for that sparkle in her eyes when we talked about something she loved.
She was beautiful,
for her ability to make other people smile even if she was sad.

No,
she wasn't beautiful for something as temporary as her looks.
She was beautiful,
deep down to her soul.

-pinterest

Saturday, October 22, 2016

a speech with love from myself to dearself


{ one year has been added in her age on 17th of October }

Opening speech:
As you can see or read from the tittle for today's entry, 23th of October, which means it has been six 
days since my born-day. 

 It wasn't my idea to hold the party, but it is my mum! I would love to but, since I'll facing an important examination, plus with some icons class (which is morning classes) and also 'betul' classes (this is evening classes and it means the class is hold just for asking questions on the topics that you're not good enough, try a lots of questions paper, and everything), so, the conclusion is, I am really busy! (don't trust me yeap). But still, I've agree with my mum's idea, and actually the main objective she persuade me is to make me cook! Hahaha, I know mummy, I always know!

On 17th of October;
So this naughty girl, j.lo, skip 'betul' class, with her excuse that nobody can help her mother at home, hiuhiuhiu.

[here]

Dearself,
People treat you how you allow them to. If you want different results, stop settling with the same people and for the same things. If you want to see a change in your existence, be the change. Life isn't as complicated as we make it and love isn't as hard as we claim it is. If you want something, work for it. Be honest in your actions and give the world great reasons to love you. Smile at yourself every once in a while just because. Continue being great, generous and grand. Each day you are capable of soaring higher than the last; each day you are reborn again. Awake each morning with loving and helping hands, act only on good intentions. Self, your story is up to you, make it one worth sharing. Promise to treasure your time. Remember that just because you want it, doesn't mean it deserves to have you. Be patient, but don't procrastinate. Be hopeful, but don't be naive. When it's right, you will know. 

I need you to learn how to forgive the ones who have wronged you. You say you do, you may even smile but deep down, your heart hurt. It's important that you start to see the value of forgiveness. Not just for the sake of others but for your own. Being forgiving to others does not make you weak. The ability to do so speaks to your heart and your character. 

Dearself,

I know you struggle sometimes but just in case I don't tell you enough, you're beautiful (self-confidence is a must, wee). Thankyou for being so strong and I appreaciate your heart and your stubbornness. 

Love,
Me.











so these are some pictures of the small party celebration, and the actual reason we pack the paperbag is for my sister's students, who open a class to teach al-Quran and amali solat. Alhamdulillah everything on that day goes smoothly, and we had lots of fun and happiness. 

Reminder:
Things that people have created just for you, even the small one, be grateful for it. Sometimes, the small things take the most part in our life. Big or small, smile and be grateful.

*Oh, that tasty cake, awh sisters made surprise for me after the celebration because it is too small, so they kept it first. They are so sweet, the treasure of my life, I can't live without them. May Allah bless everyone, in shaa Allah. 

Sannah Helwah, dearself.


Thursday, September 29, 2016

persepsi lain itu eksklusif


usap aku diriku sendiri, air mata mengalir di pipi, di sini tempat aku, bercampur kenangan pahit juga manis, bilik ini, segalanya tempatku.

Bermonolog aku dengan sendiri,
"jangan menangis sayang," menitis air mata.
"jangan lemah, kuatkanlah. Siapa lagi yang perlu beriak kuat kalau bukan kau?" air mata semakin laju membasahi pipi.
"ujian dari Allah, walau pedih kau tetap harus mengatasi," kata-kata lembut yang keluar dari mulutku sendiri makin menggetarkan perasaan, air mata lebat mengalir di pipi.

Selama ini kubiar sepi, diam, kaku.
terhadapnya si mereka yang berkicau sumbang,
ku tenggelam dengan segala.

sapaan kecil penuh tersirat,
menyedarkan aku yang hanya berdiri kaku,
bingkas aku mengatur langkah,
menegakkan tekaan serong di minda si manusia-manusia.

,

maaf tapi aku manusia
terkesan dengan kata-kata itu biasa
walau bagaimana hidup yang aku lalui
mohon diberi laluan

aku juga manusia
yang mahukan pengakhirannya bahagia
sama seperti kamu-kamu juga

,

hidup aku berbeza
berbeza yang bagaimana itu biarlah menjadi simpanan
lambat laun aku tahu ia pasti akan disiar
yang pasti aku tahu perbezaan yang sedikit ini berbeza

,

ibu masih lagi tenang sambil mencicah, aku bagai amat perlu perhatian darinya, tertekan aku menghadap seorang, aku perlu seorang untuk aku luah, kongsi bersama. Gesaan aku mengganggunya,
tersenyumnya ke arahku. Lalu, kata-kata menitir di bibirnya;

"Anak ibu, manusia takkan pernah berhenti, walau dia berhenti pasti sambungannya bakal muncul. Sekiranya benar disalah-salahkan, inikan pula yang salah. Ingat pesan ibu; antara kita yang bersungut susah semahunya ini harus sentiasa ingat ini, simpan dalam ingatan, jangan pernah terfikir susahnya kita itu adalah yang paling susah, yang pastinya di setiap susah kita itu pasti ada sekecil kesenangan, jangan pernah lupa yang pasti juga ada manusia yang lebih susah dari kehidupan kita. Seperti kita, masih mampu untuk memenuhi kemahuan diri kita sendiri, jangan bersedih ya anak ibu, ibu akan sentiasa ada,"

kata-kata yang menyedarkan aku, aku lupa segala ini.


(entah kenapa aku mahukan kisah lain bagai pengajaran di pagi Jumaat ini)
moga dimanfaatkan.
#wordsbyJA
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Tuesday, September 13, 2016

An awkward hello-

"
... As soon as I reached, I saw a flat cloud, iron-grey and blue across the place. The closer I got to the shoreline, the more clearly it was defined. I walked along and saw it was a series of undulating sand dunes. And there, a young lady, down a dune four hundred feet away and some minutes later, on those undulating dunes, we walked toward each other under the grey sky. I silently looking at her ; she was a real walker - arms swinging, flat shoes, no cap, no map. It was lovely, too, grey sky above, the sun in the southwest, and a cloudburst falling like a broken bag in the east. I watched this lady, this fairly young lady, in her warm scarf and a bunch of flowers in her hand. I watched her come on. She did not look at me. She drew level and did not notice me. There was no other human being in sight on the beach, deserted for once, only for a lone fishing boat. She walked past me and still with stony-faced.

"Em, hello!" I said.
"Oh," she turned her head to me. "Hello-"

She gave me a good smile - because I am the one who had spoken first. But if I hadn't, 
we would have passed each other on that lonely beach, 
not another soul around, 
five feet apart without a word.

"

Thursday, September 08, 2016

random questions I've got / I've made


u must be a good advisor cause it seems like one from the way u write in blog yeah
and also a good listener
This is such a nice ever, I'll keep this in mind forever hoho. I'm not sure about that but I love to write about what I've see, what I've go through in this life and everything. I hope I'm a good advisor to myself too--

Hows mj?
everything is fine--

Heartbroken, need some healing
I don't know if I should answer this question cause I've through this hurt moments too. I know how much the pain, everyday you can feel it, even years. But, you should stand up, put smile on your face, do something that can make you happy and even if you can forgot it for awhile, it is the best so far cause it is the process in order to forget all of the hurt things in your life. You have to play well with your feelings because sometimes if you're seriously focused on your feelings, in will turn into bad things-- so, be happy dear sweetheart.

Asking you for some tutobies cause ur blog is fun to visit like,....everytime hikhik
nah I'm not good in those things btw thankyou for visiting my blog like,...everytime hikhik xoxo!

mmg minat art?
ya saya sangat meminati bidang art huhu.

“Remember, when things were hard, you always turned my tears into smiles. Don’t cry in places without me because you always had a lot of tears.”
I don't know who are you but, thankyou. This is like a little present but such a big impact to me. Thanks again!

Keep fighting on your journey! Hwaiting!!
I will in shaa Allah, thankyou, may Allah bless you! Hwaiting too xx

If u really want to know if someone cares and loves u,
just see whether they take u towards sin or if they protect u from it.
          :')


,


A picture of yourself







   hikhik.









What I would find in your bag
Lipbalm, telephone, a pen, journal book, purse
{because of that I prefer  using backpack or totebag}

Last song I listened to
Secret love song by Little Mix

Your favorite thing to get at a restaurant
my favourite: ice lemon tea or ice cappuccino

First 5 songs on shuffle
  1. Suatu Pernah - Fynn Jamal
  2. A Little Love - Fiona Fung
  3. Pillow Talk - Zayn Malik
  4. Lara Lagi - Adira
  5. Look at Me Now - Speed
What I want to be when I'm older
graphic designer or novelist or a teacher

5 facts about me 
  1. I am the youngest child
  2. I am so in love with cartoon,"Sofia The First" but not too obsess
  3. Back then, I love to keep chocolate wrappers
  4. I am absolutely love to wear shades
  5. I love to explore dictionary

Top 5 favourite books
  1.  Sumbat by Faizal Sulaiman
  2.  Penjara Rindu by Nia Arisaa
  3.  Gadis Kecil di Pinggir Gaza by Vanny Chrisma W.
  4.  This is a Love Story by Jessica Thompson
  5.  The Fault in our Stars by John Green

Something I really, really want; right now
food; I didn't take my breakfast yet, hihi

What I did yesterday
Oh, since yesterday is the last day of school before holiday & aidiladha celebration, some of my friends and I decided to go to the nearest supermaket and had lunch together, play some games, gossip, shopping (books & stuff), yeah I think I am so happy yesterday. Weepii

Have you ever liked someone and never told them? Why?
Rejection : Cause everyone like me who scare of rejection wouldn't did it. I didn't have courage to tell something that mostly important to me to others. At least, if I am really sure I've set the best way, I will. I will

Battery percentage right now
My laptop; 73%

Recommend 3 blogs, why (make it short) ?
  1. Izza Atirah ; she always update her life routine and others relate; I love it
  2. analysis paralysis ; well, I always found a new words that I don't know,
                                   so I had fun reading her blog
  3. Crownist : honestly, I'm just found this blog, and I immediately fall in love,
                      her blog is cool. Simple but totally nice! Oh, she is also a newbie
Complete this sentence: "I wish I had someone with whom I could share..."
"I wish I had someone with whom I could share all my happiness rather than sharing my sadness cause everyone had their own problems which is they kept it as secret or to share with the people that they've put trust on. Our happiness is worth to share with other people; in other reason, it could make 'the others' feel and join their happiness too (so the love will be bigger). Sadness must suit the situation, we can share it, but we must know the condition of the person that we would be tellin' our problems. So, as I can conclude, we could share everything to people but we have to suit the atmosphere, don't be too hard to heard others' opinion; don't be selfish, respect others, be good."

A quote from someone you know
"You are imperfect, but other of yours make you looks special; the imperfect will not lost but will be fading. Now, the perfect side will be showing, be prepare."

If your life was a novel, what would the tittle be?
"Jars of neglect Journal"

Which gives you the most pleasure; giving presents or receiving them?
For me, giving and receiving, both are pleasure. In giving presents to someone, I will put as many of my effort to make the one receive feels grateful, happy and so on. For receiving, I think this better cause I will make sure to take care of it; we will be more appreciate if we got something from people, is it right?

Screenshot your desktop

me love to be simple


So, if you want to try this random question by me,
 I've prepared the questions for you guys:
right click > open link in new tab > save photo
please leave a comment if you take the photo or you try the questions, I will visit your blog!

#mehopeyouenjoy
#letitgoo
#wordsbyJA

so, have question to ask?

Monday, August 29, 2016

I don't know my name

I don't know my name
I don't play by the rules of the game
So you said I'm just trying
Just trying

So I heard you are my sisters friend
You get along quite nicely
You ask me why I cut my hair
And change myself completely

I went from bland and popular
To joining the marching band
I made the closest friends
I'll ever have in my life time

I am lost
Trying to get found
In an ocean of people
Please don't ask me any questions
There won't be a valid answer
I'll just say...

I don't know my name
I don't play by the rules of game
So you say I'm just trying
Just trying

I now know my name
I don't play by the rules of the game
So you say, I'm not trying
But I'm trying
To find my way

Grace VanderWaal

Sunday, August 21, 2016

for myself


here I am,
at the balcony,
with a cup of coffee in my hand,
wearing this favourite shirt of mine,
with calm and the beautiful appearance
of light by the moon,

here I am,
making time for myself.

a sip of coffee,
this feels better,
in this night,
everything is just perfect.

please,
in needed of this calmness,
please,
to stay longer,
tonight, stay still.


#wordsbyJA
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Wednesday, June 29, 2016

Wish list


A guy who looks great in jeans
A guy who likes my favourite dishes
A guy who laughs even when my stories are boring
I like that kind of guy
We don't have to talk too long to know this

A guy who has a sexy brain
A guy who hides me in his bosom
When he sees me flossing
A guy who makes a great cream pasta
A guy with beautiful eyes when he smiles
I like that kind of guy

Even when I am broke
He is a guy who wants to see me
Even when I am rude
He is a guy who still responds with a smile
I like that kind of guy

arrange by Solar MAMAMOO
; Eric Nam Solar [We Got Married Ep. 12]


Friday, June 24, 2016

tanda tanya

Aneh aku pada yang mulanya hanya percakapan biasa-biasa, tibanya bertukar menjadi serius lalu beralih menjadi sebuah pertelingkahan.

Bukan itu yang dimahu.

Aneh aku pada mereka yang beriak biasa. Tiada dipedulinya apa mahunya juga, seperti tidak pentingnya mereka padahal bila jauh dari mata, tidak sudah kelihatan, baru menyesal jatuh bertahun lama.

Apa mahu mereka?

----------

Aneh aku pada mereka yang membawa tebal kisah palsu. Kehulur, kehilir. Dibiarkan tersebar serata biar ditarik segala perhatian yang ada.

Apa mereka dapat?

Aneh aku pada mereka yang sering berkata-kata tinggi pada belakang, sekali ke hadapan mulut juga tidak mengeluar suara. Tidak bergerak mulutnya bak si bisu.

Diam, rapat.

Aneh aku pada mereka yang gah mengusung berjebah cerita, dijaja tanpa dipikir apa mungkin pada mereka yang lain. Bagai sentiasa pada yang lain tidak kena, hanya diri yang sempurna.

Menggeleng aku.

Biar.

Alah, siapa jua yang sempurna, bukan?

Ikhlas di sini bukan untuk sesiapa, tapi jika ada tulisan yang terkena pada jiwa, maaf.

Buat diri sendiri yang kadang terpesong,
masing-masing,
tolong ingatkan ya.

Em,
kebaikan kalau diajaknya seramai yang lain, lebih baik bukan?
#wordsbyJA
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Tuesday, June 21, 2016

I am and will always do

I want to wait,
and always wait,
but you took such a long time,
my patience is getting weak,
I want to make the first step,
I tried to hold on,
but,

I do,

I choose the first step,


looking back again for several times,
I don't want to do this,
but I've tried,
and I'm tired,

if you do come again,
please know that I have wait,
and will always do

#wordsbyJA
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Thursday, June 16, 2016

ZALORA | G-Shock Appearance


don't be shock, because it is;...
appearance of:
      { G-Shock | ZALORA }       




They have a huge new collection of watches that showcases the best styles that are popular for this season. The watches have a lot of designs and of course it is suitable for both men and women. 

A lot of fashion can be suit with G-Shock watch such as feminine style can choose light colour of the watch, it will be very looking good!

Here is some photos of the new collection of watches;


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Thursday, June 09, 2016

Asal kamu kembali

Pergi.
Walau sejauh mana kau mahu.
Gapai segala cita juga inginmu.
Asal janji satu itu,
katanya yang engkau akan kembali.
Aku mahu itu satu ditunai.

setia,
teguh,
membilang hari malah setiap detikan jam dihitung,
bilakah agaknya wajah ku rindu bakal hadap di depan mata.

Tiada rayuan untuk mengingati aku yang di sini,
tapi juga berharap bakal lintas rasa rindu walau seketika cuma.
Tak mengapa jika tidak diluah,
cuma pinta bikin sesuatu yang perlu sahaja,
untuk aku yang di sini masih tahu dan sedar bahawa ruang masih ada,
setianya janji masih terikat,
dan dengan itu berdirinya aku teguh di sini setia.

Asal kamu kembali,
biar ditatap wajah rindu aku ini,
jauh rupanya segala yang berlaku tanpa terjejasnya jurang antara kita.

Biar.
Lakukan semua apa yang kau mahu,
bersungguh dan lihatkan hasilnya,
biar aku percaya dengan tidak sia-sia yang selama ini setia,
asal kamu kembali.

Biar langkah sejauh mana, di bawah langit ini aku tahu kita masih bersama, saling kelihatan kerna itu yang kita sering bersama, tak mengapa ingatkan aku bahawa ini takkan menjadi yang sia-sia, asal kamu kembali.

Asal kamu kembali,
wahai wajah yang ku rindu.

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Monday, June 06, 2016

day-two

Alhamdulillah, so today is day two of Ramadhan. 
Wish that everyone will be having a great day, in shaa Allah.  Even it is well known to be tired, but if you search the beauty point of fasting, it will guide you to the meaning of this life as people know it is a way to make people experience the poor life of some people who couldn't have a proper meals in their daily life. It is not just about that, it will guide you even bigger things. So, all you need to do is, get through of this test with the sincere from the heart. It sounds different from what you have been heard but this is actually true. Every good deeds that you have done will be reward for something even better, that is every Muslims goals to. May Allah bless, ameen.

Sunday, June 05, 2016

Changes in the wrong decisions of needed

it might get hurt when you can learn and see that people around you are leaving one by one.
Day by day it will be strange, again, to meet them.
and after all, it will turns it to be stranger.

What I have to do with these memories that you leave behind?
I don't wanna forget all of them, not because I can't
you've created the beautiful moments and happiness
for me is having you to color the emptiness of my journey.
Having you by my side is like completing the pages that are missing in certain chapters.
You're needed. For everytime.

;
People,
I'm talking about love,
not only for one,
but for everyone,
I miss all of you


Having people that you need almost the time, it is comforting. But in life, humans need to know that sometimes humans leave someone for human. Cause that is what life is about. Don't worry, build your future beautifully and be the kind of human that you want other humans to be.
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Friday, May 20, 2016

life — lots of wishes

Wish to be a dreamer,
create a fairy-tale
on my own.

Be as happy as I could.
Be on my own stories.
Every words and chapters
by my own.

,

I want to grab achievement,
without having difficult tests.

I want to live in a life that just fill with happiness,
without being sad or hurt.

,

Wish that I can fly as high as I could,
to see how humans living in their own stories.

I wish to have a life–
that people does not have to pretending being a kind person,
but actually they are sincerely truly kind.
People don’t have to be curious or envy or jealous with someone’s happiness,
but actually they give support to someone’s happiness,
and spread the love.

Wish to have all I wish to have to,
without worrying on how to get the things tho.

I wish I could,
but wishes are just wishes.



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Thursday, May 05, 2016

Mesej dari whatsapp group

group whatsapp kelas yang sememangnya tak active sangat tiba-tiba sakan laju je ada chat. Kelmarin--
awal-awal pagi pulak tu. Mestilah rasa pelik kan, ke aku yang pelik? Macam mustahil la budak-budak kelas aku ni apahal rajin sangat pepagi, selalu kalau nak bergaduh-gaduh manja pun malam-malam ja (redha), memang akan hang handphone semua orang. Akibat daripada musykil yang melampau, laju tangan aku check handphone.

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jodoh, pertemuan, ajal, maut, semua di tangan Tuhan. 
Salah sorang sahabat, telah kematian bapanya. 

Hari Rabu lepas Hari Kokurikulum sekolah. Gelak sakan ja dia, happy. Tapi esoknya, si ayah telah pergi meninggalkan mereka sekeluarga. Laju tangan aku menaip ucapan takziah kepadanya, rasa tak sesuai untuk aku telefon dalam keadaan waktu begitu. Itu saja yang aku mampu buat sebagai seorang sahabat, tak terdaya, dengan harapan dia tahu akan ada orang yang sentiasa disamping ketika susah, senang, sedih mahupun gembira. Besarnya dugaan Allah nak bagi. Tak dijangka, memang takkan sesiapa pun jangka. Siapa yang akan kuat. Tahun ini tahun yang penting untuk kami, SPM tak lama lagi bakal menjelma. Aku hanya mampu selitkan doa untuknya, semoga dikuatkan semangat untuk melalui hari-hari yang akan mendatang.

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Hidup ini memamg penuh kejutannya,
cuma isi dalam kejutan itu seperti apa itu yang tidak kita ketahui.
Ajal itu pasti.


Bila aku sudah tiada
simpan semua kenangan kita
jangan ditangis selalu
sisipkan namaku disetiap doamu
moga kita bertemu di sana
yang bahagia selamanya.



Al-fatihah

Friday, April 15, 2016

the pain #2


smile to everyone she meet,
bright as she has been practicing,
and that's the truth.

keep making prepation,
for every steps she choose,
for every thing that she has to pick as a her best answer,
all of every,
she carefully watch, learn and try the best to keep her feeling.

Because she knows,
once you have make decision,
things might not as same as it would after one second,
it might change   e v e r y t h i n g .

And that she is,
holding the character of carefully young lady in making decisions.

but that's her choice,
she knows how hard to stand again after fell hardly,
she knows how hard to build a life--- again,
she knows how hard to meet people and act differently,
she knows how hard to make a new chapter as she force herself every single day.

rising up again is hard,
the process to through this journey of life need a lots of patience,
every secong in life is beautiful,
and that's make people becomes mature.

she starts to rising up again.....
smile,
oh that is so beautiful!


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