Thursday, December 10, 2020

A beautiful recover



I am surprised,
knowing that I know something would happen.
I figure out that it will be at the nearest end, so close.

unbelievable.

and how things were really happened.

amazing.


so, here;

What do you think — having a deep wound, not fully recover but can handle the pain, and still, you, letting the same wound take more bigger part of your body, so much pain, it is burning, it is risking, yet you, still handle with care, put a lot of strength to survive, so much patience, abundance of hopes hoping that it will recover, soon.

You believe it will. You smile brightly, like there's no pain that you are handling. You're good at doing that. "I'm okay" always at your mouth. Well, takpa, Allah kan ada (ease some sort of me when I said this).

I found something beautiful and really helpful to recover when I'm down, sad or uneasy feelings
I discovered this particular ayat in al-Quran always comforts me, anytime, anywhere when I recite it.

Al-Baqarah, 2:286.





Allah tidak memberati seseorang melainkan apa yang terdaya olehnya. Ia mendapat pahala kebaikan yang diusahakannya, dan ia juga menanggung dosa kejahatan yang diusahakannya. (Mereka berdoa dengan berkata): "Wahai Tuhan kami! Janganlah Engkau mengirakan kami salah jika kami lupa atau kami tersalah. Wahai Tuhan kami! Janganlah Engkau bebankan kepada kami bebanan yang berat sebagaimana yang telah Engkau bebankan kepada orang-orang yang terdahulu daripada kami. Wahai Tuhan kami! Janganlah Engkau pikulkan kepada kami apa yang kami tidak terdaya memikulnya. Dan maafkanlah kesalahan kami, serta ampunkanlah dosa kami, dan berilah rahmat kepada kami. Engkaulah Penolong kami; oleh itu, tolonglah kami untuk mencapai kemenangan terhadap kaum-kaum yang kafir".



It might look simple, it might doesn't really give impact to someone, but I believe there will be someone, out there—like me that go through a hard life, nearly giving up, and so on. Look up for this particular verse and understand the meaning of it. I cried even after recite it over and over again, maybe because I am too soft, and it touched my heart, so calm. Tearing up so much but somehow it help me gain strength like "I am strong, I know I can go through all of this because of that I am still here."  I ain't gonna lie, I am not really someone that is good, I do have my bad too as what we know that nobody is perfect.

As much as this ayat help me so much with my life, so I am more than happy to share with others too. And in hope that we can get over or recover from our sadness with a great way.




take care of yourself my dear sunflowers 🌻

Monday, November 16, 2020

demi corak baharu



Tuhan,

pintaku disaat ini
agar dipeluk jiwaku
erat hingga mencekalkan
simpul biar penuh kekuatan
menyeluruh supaya tiada kesakitan
dan berganti dengan senyuman
walau yang ditatap dari kejauhan
akan lagi teguh menanti kebahagiaan.

dan dari itu
kuatlah
demi jiwa yang perlu
demi perjalanan yang masih jauh
demi sekeping hati yang mahu mengisi
demi ruang yang bakal terbuka
dan corak kisah baharu yang bakal tercipta

dan dari itu
teruskanlah langkahmu
dengan sepenuhnya.



🌸
"For a flower to blossom, she needs to feel the wind and face the rain too." —Hotel Del Luna, Episode 8

Monday, October 26, 2020

Have a good day.

It's been awhile for #noteoftheday, so today there's a new entry for it 📜

To the person that is reading this right now—

I miss going to cafes.


I need you to know that there will always be a joy in your heart despite the sadness you've faced. Beneath all the pain you feel right now is everything you've always wanted and because you've searched for love in the wrong person, you have forgotten that you were always capable of providing yourself with everything you need.

You can't keep someone who doesn't belong in your life and there is no future with someone who can only fit in your past. You can't love a person into loving you back and this is why you must love yourself enough to walk away.

I have no idea where you are right now,
I don't even know your name
but I believe that when your heart finds these words, you will arrive to this moment with the weight of the world on your shoulders while struggling with the loneliness you've been feeling.

Again,
I know I'm just a stranger and maybe I'm wandering too far over the line into your life and maybe it's just none of my business but I can't help it. The desire to help you has brought me here where you can read these words. If you are on the verge of breaking down, you're tired of fighting, tired of being strong, tired of loving without being loved so I would tell you; Even with a storm cloud hovering above your head, you've arrived to this moment and that just means you're a survivor.

I hope there words are enough to remind you that you have been the hero in this story and if for some reason I've failed at reaching you, I'll try once more at another time. Have a good day.



written by r.h. Sin
and I edited a little bit from there.

Monday, September 28, 2020

tiada pentingnya



masih yang aku ingat
ketika kepercayaan yang aku letakkan
kepadamu
dan dari segenap kekuatan
aku mundur dari yang lalu
memberi ruang padamu

dan sejurus itu
aku kirimkan hatiku
kepadamu

bahagia riak wajahmu
yang sementara,
hanya.

mungkin hatiku tidak begitu penting untuk dijaga
mungkin telah kau pulangkan sikit demi sedikit
saat sepi yang tersengaja
mungkin ini yang sewajarnya
gesa ingin aku pergi
hilang dan tiada.