the pain #3

She remember;

She run so fast as she heard the ring sound by her telephone,
knowing so much who might be the caller,
the smile on her mouth can't be stop,
it looks like it is gonna burst to the full of happiness level,

but then,

her smile disappear,
as the slow motion could be,
and totally became worst the following seconds,

--

she hang up the phone,
tears start to running down at her cheeks

"why?"
"why it is always me?"

--

every reflect questions to herself wouldn't give answers to her,
even to be respond by other,
she knows,
No -- isn't the answer
but she wouldn't get the right answer
even if she could ask hundreds people,

and the pain disappear slowly by the time keeps moving.....
030317

semakin jauh.

aku cuba.

pertamanya;
aku biar dia terbang tinggi
di dada langit aku lihat dia sepertinya puas
bebas dari kata-kata aku yang membelit
tak mengapa,
asal masih dapat ku lihat indahnya dia yang gembira

malangnya,
aku tidak mampu mencuba untuk yang kedua.

jauh.
semakin jauh.

sudah tidak dapat aku lihat bayangan indahnya
aku mula merindu
segera aku mencari tali ikatan yang kita bentuk bersama

musnah.

rupanya terlerai ikatan kukuh yang aku cuba ketatkan
engkau membawanya bersama
terbang jauh
hilang dari pandangan mata

beratnya rasa ini,
rebah aku seorang diri
menanggung derita yang semakin tidak terucap

tatapan memori belayar di minda
susah payah aku cuba untuk tersenyum meniti ingatan memori

indah.

seketika perjalanan pahit yang aku tempuh ini
mulai dirasai bagai dilahir semula

aku bagai merangkak-rangkak sedangkan mahu berjalan laju dari lakaran indah-indah ini,
aku bagai mula belajar berlari-- terima perkara baru,
sudah menepis ingatan lalu yang acap kali sentiasa mekar,
namun tidak mampu aku untuk membuangnya jauh,
lalu aku abadikan sebagai kenangan pahit yang suatunya ketika dahulu pernah membuat aku bahagia.

terima kasih,
walau jauh,
semakin jauh,
     hilang dari pandangan mata.



first entry of twenty-seventeen


    

Little Things

Your hand fits in mine like it's made just for me
But bear this in mind, it was meant to be
And I'm joining up the dots with the freckles on your cheeks
And it all makes sense to me

I know you've never loved the crinkles by your eyes when you smile
You've never loved your stomach or your thighs, the dimples in your back at the bottom of your spine
But I'll love them endlessly

I won't let these little things
Slip out of my mouth
But if I do
It's you
Oh it's you
They add up to
I'm in love with you
And all these little things

You can't go to bed without a cup of tea
And maybe that's the reason that you talk in your sleep
And all those conversations are the secrets that I keep
Though it makes no sense to me

I know you've never loved the sound of your voice on tape
You never want to know how much you weigh, you still have to squeeze into your jeans
But you're perfect to me

I won't let these little things
Slip out of my mouth
But if it's true
It's you
It's you
They add up to
I'm in love with you
And all these little things

You'll never love yourself half as much as I love you
And you'll never treat yourself right darlin' but I want you to
If I let you know I'm here for you
Maybe you'll love yourself like I love you, oh

I've just let these little things
Slip out of my mouth
'Cause it's you
Oh it's you
It's you they add up to
And I'm in love with you
And all these little things

I won't let these little things
Slip out of my mouth
But if it's true
It's you
It's you
They add up to
I'm in love with you
And all your little things

- One Direction

[ some photos of twenty-sixteen ]

 I am writing for ; the first entry of twenty-seventeen on 9th of Januanry 2017, unpredictable j.lo. I am currently working, so, I couldn't update any entry at all, since the workplace have the serious poor internet line, ugh.

But, let move on to the very new episode of January 2017'.

🎆🎇

journey of 2016 ;
for me, it is a year fill with roller coaster, lots of it, as if I can say, even if I've planned it beautifully, still, It turns not as I wanted to or
it doesn't form anything at all, but it just sometimes. Well, as we have to know, Allah's plan are more beautiful than human's plan. Up and down in life are exist to test we as human on how to manage it with one reason ; to grab the achievement from the maze that are build up. Of course, every problems will have the ending or the resolution of it and etc—the experience that we gain from the problems that we manage it hardly.






Thankyou.

Thankyou for those memories from a lot of people that I've known and we get through a year together, helping each other with a lot of hard moments along 2016. Somehow, I am so happy and excited to explore more upcoming days i 2017. May everything will be good, in shaa Allah.

For this 2017,
I've prepared a planner, of course. It is so needed since I did love to paint rainbows at the sky everyday and make the birds singing happily without any doubt. How I wish that my wish would turn great. auch 😍



"make this year about yourself. write a journal with your thoughts and ideas, take care of yourself and remind yourself to put your well-being first, acquire new skills, learn a language, set yourself goals to achieve, and study for your future. you will thank yourself later."

— tumblr
 N E W   B E G I N N I N G

If I have learn anything this year, it is I won't ever be ready for what life throws at me. I won't have the right words when it counts ; I won't know what to choose when fate itself is staring me down. But now I know I don't always need to have the right answer.

I've learned I can go on waiting for something, sustained by hope and nothing more—or I can put it aside and shrug my shoulders. Bravely accept the fact that I can't keep my heart safe any more than I can stop love from taking everything from me.

 I have learned to stop saying yes when I don't mean it—to alive authentically as I know how. To allow the tips of my fingers to skirt the darkness, as long as I remember to keep my eyes fixed on the light. And as one door opens and another closes, I will move forward with the knowledge that unlike so many others, I have another year ahead of me—another shot at making it all the way around the sun, and a chance to get it right this time around.

 Lang Leav









semoga menjalani hari-hari yang baru dengan penuh perkara yang dapat menenangkan jiwa.
from Ezzat Eddy ; Hope for amazing day and if it is not, it's okay because it just a bad day not a bad life.

[ Hello 2017 ]

lovely things


someone who can't contain their smile when they see you
seeing the colours blend together smoothly while doing art
putting on your favourite perfume
laughing so much you can't breathe
walking into familiar bookshop
day when you let nothing get to you
taking photographs and capturing moments in journal
wearing your favourite coat
seeing a message notification from someone who means a lot to you
picking strawberries at a local farm
glitter in the sand and in the sea water
little ephemeral moments when you're happy to be alive.


source; flowerais

365 days Daily Planner Giveaway by Luqman Zakaria

hello!
,


it has been a long time since I join any giveaway. I found this giveaway which is a favourite item the most of all for planner addict! And I am one of it who really want this 365 days Daily Planner ✨

Time flies too fast, and it is already December, which means-- few days more for 2016.
"Wake me up when december end,"
2017 would be so good if I prepare journal/planner to document every chapter and new things in my life, great! So, this is the opportunity for me, hehe.

Goodluck.